I got a shower!! *excited* I got it all by myself and it was a normal shower not a drag-a-chair-in shower, but a normal shower. It's a small victory, but since I hurt my ankle I've always had to have mum help me get a shower or a bath. ^^

Okay so I think there is a conspiracy within the medical stuff around here. On Tuesday I went to the orthopedic doctor and they said first of all that even though we called the day before and got an appointment they didn't have me on the list. Next they didn't tell us we needed the x-rays from the hospital. I had to get the cast the hospital put me in off and get more x-rays. Then I found out that the "cast" they put me in was probably the worst kind for it. Next of all they didn't even put me on an anti-inflammatory so not only did they wrap the bandages too tight, but my foot and ankle got swollen and it made it worse. I got an air cast and have been told I have to wear it for 6 weeks *whimper* I have a new appointment in five. Both of the meds I'm on now fuck up my balance and make me dizzy. One fucks up my moods, the other gives me a stuffy nose and they both make me sick. So yesterday I tried to get up from my chair at work and . . . fell. Fell and could not get up. Two people had to take an arm and pull me back up to my chair. This morning mum was helping me with the bath and I fell again. With the crutches I also sway some and stumble and I've nearly fallen on them several times. Mum told me that seeing me take the long walk from memaw and papaw's apartment to the car (break free because there's no place to sit, uphill climb, while being extremely hot and feeling sick) she would sweat off her make-up after that. When George at work told her he saw me sitting in the waiting area upstairs because I couldn't move she decided I needed something steady to use. Making me promise to actually try to walk some on my foot when it's ready she decided I need a walker. So now I have a pretty blue walker that folds up.

With the inability to get ready on my own in the morning and all of the women going to Sannibel in a week it has been decided that I am going as well. I HATE Sannibel and refused outright to go when the trip was first brought up. Now I have no choice. What's worse is my Aunt Bobbie is going and since I'm injured she's already trying to get more sympathy than me. Since Mum got me wheelchair assistance for the plane she's decided she needs it too. *sigh* I don't want to compete with her. She seems to think it already is one. I love her and I'm used to conceding attention to others (siblings are both attention hogs), but I'm not used to competing with someone over something I have no control over. It's not like I tried to hurt myself. I didn't even try to get this damn walker or the wheelchair assistance. I'm frustrated enough and this fucking medicine has me on the brink of tears 24/7. *sigh*

Also I think i might have hurt my toe when I fell at work. It has been really stiff and not just when I'm losing circulation. The only time it doesn't was when I took a bath this morning. I'd really hate for this to have happened. Such is life I guess. Meh

Late last night/early this morning we finally managed to get home from Canada. I miss being there all ready and I miss my Tegan.

( cut for long talk )

I'm posting this now even though I don't leave until Thursday morning because tomorrow (okay well more like tonight, but still) we're staying up closer to the hotel (it's like 2 hrs away from home). THe flight is at 6 a.m. and it's a 7 hr flight. We're spending the first day/night in Seattle (mum insisted ;.;) then Friday we'll drive up to our hotel in Vancouver and meet up with Tegan and her family ^^

I'll take lots of pictures and they'll most likely end up on my facebook and my deviantart. I'll try to post a few here too. No idea if I'll get on the internets at all during the trip, we shall see. We come back the 11th late at night and mum plans on us going to work the 12th. We shall see about that too. ^^

01. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
02. How long have you known me?
03. When and how did we first meet?
04. What was your first impression?
05. Do you still think that way about me now?
06. What do you think my weakness is?
07. Do you think I'll get married?
08. What makes me happy?
09. What makes me sad?
10. What reminds you of me?
11. If you could give me anything, what would it be?
12. How well do you know me?
13. Have you ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
14. Do you think I could kill someone?
15. Describe me in one word.
16. Do you think our friendship is getting stronger, weaker, or staying the same?
17. Do you feel that you could talk to me about anything and I would listen?
18. Are you going to put this on your LiveJournal and see what I say about you?

I found a tutorial on making brushes on Wednesday and went a little nuts. It was originally teaching how to make a quilted pattern by making stitches, but I learned how to make my own brushes. The result: THIS Yami no Matsuei Photoshop Brushes. I took the character sketches from the anime and made a few brushes.

Here is a look at them all. Just black on a white background using the pain brush.


YnM Brushes by ~Kyokutou on deviantART

Dear Abberly Crest,

You're fire alarms suck. Go die

Much love <3
Jenn

It is 5 o'clock in the morning. I have just fallen asleep two hours ago. Our fire alarms are not like normal smoke alarms. They screech so loud it's like the ones they have in the schools. My bed is up high enough that there is about 3 feet between my mattress and the ceiling. The fire/smoke alarm in my TINY room is about 4 feet from my head and that does not count for the echo. ;.;

It was five minutes of hell as one went off and the others started up. I listened. No movement from the people above us, no echo from their fire alarms. When they didn't stop I finally got pissed enough that I climbed down my ladder and began looking outside. Nope, no one was moving. Mum was now up. We search for the magnet with the numbers on it. It's MIA *grumble* Mum finally finds the number and they stop.

Five minutes later we try to go back to sleep . . . the fire alarm starts up again. Five minutes and a phone call later it stops. By now Mum's realized we're both too wide awake to go back and might as well go to work early (we get there at seven fucking o'clock). While we're getting ready . . . it goes off again!! The maintenance guy comes and replaces the two right by mum's bedroom door because she thinks those are the ones going off first.

If they go off again this morning someone is gonna die.

Oh, but it gets more fun. At work I had busy work all day. Around 8:30 Michal pops his head over my cube wall and says me and my special mold detector powers are needed >.> Mum smells mold in her office and she wants to know where it's coming from so we can take care of it. I became "mold detector" when we went to investigate a place my sister was thinking of moving into and I started getting dizzy and having troubles breathing in the basement they were supposed to stay in. So I get to go near something that makes my asthma start up and causes me to get sick, dizzy and hurts my eyes and chest. *sigh* We didn't actually find the direct source although I did find the location.

Now I feel sick to my stomach, tired, my eyes hurt, my head feels like it's swimming, I can't seem to keep it level (it wants to tip one way or the other), and I'm starting to feel the beginnings of another fucking migraine x.x

Breakout by ~Kyokutou on deviantART

Once you have been tagged, you have to write a blog with 10 random things, facts, goals, or habits about yourself. At the end, choose 10 people to be tagged, listing their names & why you chose them. Don't forget to leave them a comment (you're it!) and to read your blog for instructions. You can't tag a person who has tagged you. Since you can't re-tag me, let me know when you've posted your blog so I can read the answers!

1. I could have sworn I've done this meme before through someone else, but oh well I shall do it again.

2. When someone tells me not to or that I can't do something my first instinct is to go do it and to prove them wrong.

3. Despite my looks I can lift a lot. I can't lift weights, but I can lift boxes, carry groceries, etc. and I can lift more than what people expect.

4. I perform my gentlemanly duties. Meaning I hold doors open, help people lift things, pick up things, etc. I don't think chivalry should apply to just men.

5. Becoming a published writer is my major goal in life, but what I'm working toward is becoming a graphic designer in the publishing industry. I love it and want to do more in the field.

6. Recently I have discovered that I'm starting to care less and less about what other people think and starting to be more of myself around people. Shocking development here.

7. I have to pee. fixed that problem I got a comment on my deviant art from Haruka Minami-sensei!! and I was the second person to watch her!!! XDD *fangirls like woah*

8. I love small places. My room now is about a fourth the size of my old room and I love it. Just keep people out of it or I'll start freaking out because I have serious personal space issues.

9. The song "Mmm Plucky Plucky" from Girl Scout camp is forever stuck in my head and I don't think I can ever get it out ;.;

10. I'M GOING TO CANADA THIS JUNE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! *dances*

I tag saphira112, golden_archer, kurosaki_koi, snakechild, shexay_yasuda, and then because I want to be mean to solo_argento I tag hydromania with the threat of locking odetopaperwork in a room with his father v.v X3

OMG!! You have no idea how excited I am!! I haven't been able to stop smiling all day! People at work probably assume I've lost it completely finally. I've been bugging mum for a while now to get up to Canada and this year I said I want to do it this summer and said it with finality. She put it off for a while, but last week and this week I pushed it further and started looking up tickets. THis sparked issues with expenses (because Jenn officially sucks at finding cheap plane tickets *fail*) and how we could get Tegan down here. Finally mum actually sat down and did the research and found out that she had a free ticket for somewhere in the US. We're flying into Seattle then (mum thinks we'll stay the night there) then drive into wherever our hotel is (we haven't picked that yet). My brother's going with so he can distract mum while I go off with my lurve~ X3

I swear I'm bouncing off the walls I'm so excited! Hee!!

Once you have been tagged, you have to write a blog with 10 random things, facts, goals, or habits about yourself. At the end, choose AS MANY FREAKIN' PEOPLE AS YOU WANT to be tagged. Don't forget to leave them a comment (you're it!) and to read your blog for instructions. You can't tag a person who has tagged you. Since you can't re-tag me, let me know when you've posted your blog so I can read the answers!

1. I have a tendency to go do things when people tell me that I can't. Like when someone says I can't do any heavy lifting because I'm a girl. I lift more than most guys I know so XP

2. I love books. Not just reading, I love being around books. I feel more at home when there are piles of them around me.

3. I fall. Not doing dangerous things. I can balance on a balance beam without falling, but doing stupid things. LIke turning around to sit in a van, walking down the stairs, walking on completely level ground, things like that x.x

4. A lot of things interest me and I tend to get obsessed easily, but most of those obsessions pass over time. Some stick with me forevah~ (writing, Photoshop, reading)

5. Prefer to pretend Papaw is my father.

6. My family picks at each other constantly. We irritate and sort of pick fun at each other, but it's all in fun and jest. Nothing serious is brought up. Jokes about how my grandmother loves to talk, how I am a "flaming liberal", things like that.

7. My religious beliefs are complicated and a combination of things. I believe in the core beliefs of Christianity, but Dance is not evil, women do not belong only in the kitchen, etc. etc. (Raised in Southern Baptist churches)

8. I want to be a graphic designer for a publishing company.

9. I talk to myself a lot. I don't think it's weird and I refuse to stop doing it.

10. I don't like to tag people x3

So after a long day of work, bitching, and confusion we are finally in our new place. The apartment is nice and my room is right next to the AC/heating unit so I don't need a ceiling fan (not that I wanted one), which is good because with the way things are set up I can't get one. I've got a bed that's propped up on legs so my desk is underneath it. I got the "den" to convert to my bedroom because I like small spaces and none of the three bedroom apartments were available. Tomorrow is settlement so at 3 p.m. our house will be sold (hopefully) and the craziness will begin to die out.

There are boxes everywhere along with random crap that didn't have a place when I opened the box. I'm currently on Mako-chan because I haven't brought Satsuki-kun over from Memaw's and Papaw's apartment yet. I got everything else from there except for some of my clothes, 004 and a few toiletries I forgot. I still have plenty of unpacking to do and I'm sure I'll need a few boxes or so to store a few odds and ends.

The wireless isn't actually set up yet and for the first time since we traded over from dial-up I'm connected by wire to the internets. It's cable so hopefully it's much better although I haven't been able to test its limits yet. I will need to get a longer connector cord for Satsuki-chan because of the placement, but so far everything seems to be hunky dory for the internet. (which is good because I would KILL if I didn't have the internets.

When things get a bit more organized I'll try taking pics and upload them somewhere.

With my free time today and to destress I created a forum ^^ Please check it out, join, show your friends? I worked hard on it and would like greatly if it didn't just fall by the wayside.

http://z9.invisionfree.com/dreamless/index.php?act=idx

I saw ONE tutorial for making a 3D vase and now I seem to be obsessed with the 3D effect in Illustrator x.x Just a little proof of it:


Mystical bottle of d00m by ~Kyokutou on deviantART


More 3D by ~Kyokutou on deviantART

Then proof that Illustrator is beginning to steal my soul

1st Attempt:


Angry Lady by ~Kyokutou on deviantART

2nd Attempt:


Angry Lady version 2.0 by ~Kyokutou on deviantART

I blame Meagan! She reminded me about Illustrator and scolded me for attempting to draw in Photoshop.

Angry Lady version 2.0 by ~Kyokutou on deviantART

Angry Lady by ~Kyokutou on deviantART